Mother's Day and Carrots, a day of 1st!

Yesterday was my "first Mother's day", and Alex had carrots for the first time! He loved the carrots,and I had a very hard Mother's day!

Lets talk about the carrots first! While shopping Saturday night I picked up all of the 1st stage fruits and vegetables. We were pretty excited to see what he would think of them. He has been having cereal for just about a month, but not everyday. If he is in a good mood, and we are not busy, I will give him some cereal before the 7pm bottle. Some nights he does pretty good, and other nights he is not into it at all. Last night after Joe got done eating, he ran in the kitchen and opened up the carrots. I was still eating and Joe did not even give me time to get the camera before he had the first spoonful in Alex's mouth! I was trying to tell him that you have to put half in a bowl, and that you should not eat out of the container. He would not listen so I had to get up and take the carrots before he double dipped the spoon. I put half in a bowl and gave him that. I also got the camera at that time. Alex did really good and seemed to like them. He opened his mouth when he saw the spoon. He also grabbed the spoon and helped Joe, get the carrots into his mouth. He even whined when it was gone. I am excited to see what he thinks when he has them again tonight.

















Onto Mother's day. I am not going to get into the whole story because that would take a lot of time to write out, so the short of it is that our adoption is not finalized, and Alex does not have our last name, and for other reasons that I am not ready to write about, I was dreading Mother's day! I do feel like I am Alex's mom, and I do care for him 100% of the time (along with Joe), but yesterday I did not feel like I was his mother, and that I did not have the right to celebrate Mother's day. At one point Alex was being grumpy, and I broke down bawling and wondered to myself if he knew. If he knew on Mother's day that I am not his biological mother! As crazy as that might sound to some, I know I am not the only one that this has happened to! (another reason I am so glad I have all the other adoptive mom's blogs to read. -Thank you ladies) By late afternoon Joe saw that I was having a hard time, and I shared some of my feelings with him. He made me feel a little better, and we went on with our day.

(20 Week Ham)

Another thing that was a tiny factor, was the lack of relationship with my own biological mother. Another long story, but the short version is that she in not in our life, and has not been for close to 8 years. Well, a person asked me how I was doing and I started to share some of my feelings about Alex, and it turned out they meant about my mom. (no fault to that person) but that got me thinking about her, which I don't do unless someone brings her up. My pain over the Alex situation out weighs the pain for my own mom, by far, so I quickly got over her, and worked on feeling better about Alex!
After having dinner with Joe, and watching him (as Alex's daddy) give Alex carrots for the first time, I let all the hurt I was feeling go, and ended the day feeling fine.
I should also mention that Joe did a great job helping me celebrate mother's day. He had four cards for me when I got up Sunday morning. One was from our dogs, thanking me for all the treats I give them! lol 2 were from Alex, both pretty funny, and with Alex's hand traced in one of them. The other was from him, and it had a very nice note in it about what a great mom I am to Alex. They (Joe and Alex) also had a bag of gifts for me. There was some perfume, candy, a frame that said "I love Mom", a parents magazine, and the Willow* Tree. It has a woman holding a baby. It is very cute! For Christmas we had gotten the one with both parents and the baby, from Joe's mom. That started our collection, and I can't wait to add the one with the dad and baby at Father's day!
I also want to say that I am 90% sure I heard Alex say "mom" today! lol He was not looking at me, but just playing on the floor. He was trying out some different sounds and I swear I heard "mom" mixed in there. This is big because so far I have never heard him say anything with an "M" in it! :) Oh, and yesterday he said "gaga" for the first time. Before that he had never used "g". Joe and I looked at each other and cracked up when he said it!

(the waitress gave Alex a menu! lol)

Also, I do not think it will be long before we have a crawler on our hands! He has been using rolling as a way to get across the room, and now he has added "inching" like an inch worm. He does not stay in one spot when on the floor, that is for sure!