The day before!

Today is the day before our last home study visit! The big one! The one where our social worker comes to our house! I have been freaking out about this visit for weeks....no no months! I love my house, don't get me wrong. We refer to it as "a great first home". And that it is. We bought it because, out of the five or so houses, that were in our price range, four years ago, this house was by far the nicest. It's small but has a large yard, for being in the city. It has a lot of character in the front and back yard and I love that. It has a fenced in back yard which is great for our boys. But the house is small. There are two bedrooms, both about the same size. A very rectangle main room which is our living room and our dinning room in one. The kitchen is nice, and the bathroom should be a closet. I dread the day I am trying to potty train our toddler in that closet/bathroom. It also has a full basement. It is not finished, but it is still a nice space. Still our house is nice, and even nicer than the day we moved in. It was covered in busy wallpaper, and room by room I have taken it all down, and repainted. The bath room has even been painted a second time, which is easy to do since it is so small. I think that we have very good taste in decorating, and our house shows that. It is clean, simple, and yet it looks lived in. I guess the best way to describe it it that it looks "loved". I love that I own a house and that I can paint it, and change things, and so I do.
Back to our visit tomorrow, it's a big one! Everyone thinks I am crazy for freaking out, but when was the last time someone came over to look at your house? I mean really look at it! Not just to hang out. This lady is going to be looking and I want it to look perfect........but not too perfect, because that's not normal. I have been cleaning for about six weeks now, but there is still a list (of the big things) that I did not get done. For starters: I wanted to put tile down in front of the front door. This is the one that I am really mad I did not get done. This is the one I know she will say something about. I know because at my last visit with her in the office, I said I had a ton to do before she came. She asked what it could be, she knows I like to clean, so she said my house must be all ready. I told her I have some big projects I wanted to do, and I told her about how the carpet is really dirty right in front of the door, and how the carpet is a little shredded there from the dog that lived there before us. Well, I did not get that done and I know she will say something!
Another thing is the window right next to the front door. It has a triangle crack in it, and a piece of the glass is about to fall out. I really wanted to get this fixed because it drives me crazy, and it's the first thing I see when I walk up to my house. But I did not get that fixed. We have this fine line of using money to fix things around the house, and saving our money for the adoption!
The other main thing is the bedroom door to our future babies room. It has now door knob on it. We just pull it closed using the whole where the knob use to be, but surly this will not do when there is a child living in there. This has been broken, or without a knob since we bought the house. As we were moving in and the other family was moving out, they mentioned that we would need to custom order a new door for that room! Thanks! So another costly thing I have been putting off.
I did get the basement cleaned up. Not how I would like it to be, but a ton better then it was before. We tend to bring things up when we need them, and then dump them back in the basement when we are done with it. This makes it a total mess down there, pretty fast. On top of that we have way too much stuff! We have been trying to purge things since we have moved it, but that is very hard for me.
Over all I am feeling pretty good about how the house looks, but of course that does not stop me from freaking out about it. It does not help that I have to work tomorrow. I think I would feel much better about it if I could sit home and clean it all day. But instead I have to have it all ready when I go to bed tonight. Joe will be getting out a little early so he will go home and light some candles and maybe run the vacuum one last time.
I am sure it will go well. After tomorrow I will be freaking out about how long it takes her to finalize and summit our home study report. After that I am sure I will freak out, just a little, about how long it will take to be matched.
On a side note, last night Joe told me I need to chill out! He said I freak out, and stress out about everything, and that if I do not chill out, he thinks I will have a heart attack by the time I turn 30! That's next year. Guess I better figure out how to chill out a little.