D.D. in 4 days!

This wait is not getting any easier! Each time I make it through a day it feels like a big accomplishment. I don't feel any closer to getting a baby though, because I don't know when he will be here!
I started to pack my bag last night, and Joe asked if I was excited. I said I was not because it's too hard to be excited for something, when you don't know when it is going to happen. I feel like I went from 7 days until his due date, to only 4 days until his due date, but he may not come until next Wednesday and if that is the case then it's like starting my 7 day wait all over again! Get it?
Last night we did take the boys to get their nails cut, but I feel like it was for nothing. The lady just cut the tips off, so I will be back up there in another week or two. I never have very good luck at that pet store, but it's the closest one to my house. I was also there to get muzzles, but they were out of the smallest size so I will have to go back for those. I also wanted to stock up on meal worms, but the boys were so naughty and I got too flustered and ended up walking out without worms!
When I got home I got out a cabbage patch baby to start training the boys. I had read somewhere that it is a good idea to carry a doll around, just as you would a baby, for a week or two before you bring a baby home. At first the boys did not care. Joe had given them raw hides, so that was keeping them busy. Once he took the raw hides away they did want to know what I was doing. Neither of them liked when I rocked the doll, or when I made pretend crying sounds. They boy cried a little and looked nervous. I don't know if pretending with the baby is going to help really. I think they are both in for a big shock when we bring him home. I told Joe that I think it is our fault for babying them, he said "but they are our babies"! Wish us luck with that!
I talked to birth-mom today. It was a very short talk. A minute maybe. I just asked how she was feeling. She said good. I asked how the kids were and she said good. I told her I would call her again on Friday.
Man, this wait is killing me! I have been on the verge of tears all day. It is so emotional. I really just want to be done with work. Sitting at work for 9 and a half hours every day is really getting to me. There is nothing I can do at work to get ready for the baby and that bothers me. I feel unless I am doing something to prepare for him, then whatever I am doing doesn't matter. I know a lot of my frustration comes from being so tired. For the past three nights I have just tossed and turned all night. I am not getting good sleep and it is starting to wear on me! I plan to get into bed early tonight.
The wait is not getting any easier! I just wish he was here.